The hardest and most annoying thing about doing MSc for 5 years

 can I just be allowed to open with the line that I don't know why I haven't journalled all the pain and miserary I have felt with doing my MSc for 5 years - 

although the number 5 means grace in biblical terrms - this pain doesn't feel anything like  GRACE at all.

they say the nice thing about journalling is that you can just dump your thoughts on paper without immediate judgement and that it helps me not implode or explode on the work I actually am trying to get done (i.e the MSc thesis write-up itself in this case).

back to hardest and most annoying thing about doing MSc for 5 years is:

• that I sometimes work on old versions because they are unfortunately at the top of my file list/most recently opened file,
• Now that sucks hard, f*****cUK, yes I said, that's how I usually feel the second I realise that I am working on the freaking wrong file version - I quicly need to change the version
• then I have to take a hard breathe break to recuperate, deal with my emotion, convince myself NOT go give up on the whole MSc completely and then 
• take the changed (wrong version file) and have to transpose it the ACTUAL correct version file of the thesis
• the bottom line of the Fucked-upness of this situation is that it all WASTES my time and the ENERGY I so desperatley need to actually complete this thesis
• but here goes, I am deciding to be empowered by the encouragement I read this morinng from Stoich affirmations that said:
• "Don't be emotional, be focused" 

Diary exit to action: 2708/23